A plus size Human Alien Person

Im young Plus Size and Dont feel bad about it



The World of Audio

I attached my YouTube video of a glimpse into my classes.Please show me some positive vibes.

I started a new career. I am currently studying to be an Audio engineer and I never realized how much i would love it and also how hard it is. I spent months unsure with what i wanted to do with with my life. I mean im 30 everything should be magical and figured out right.

Well my ass it was , my whole life was just a serious of random events. I did not plan much and never followed through. I was a waitress and had opportunity to see Audio people in their elements and found myself intrigued.

I constantly asked questions, and looking at what the did and how. After a year of practically stalking this people one of the girls told me “Why dont you just go to school fr Audio”

Honestly it did not cross my mind, Me in audio?

But after much thoughts i went and talk to college counselor and i signed up immediately. I am in love yall!

Yes i said yall i am from Texas , lol

So now im taking these classes take so much time and i just cant get over how uch i enjoy it all.Turns out females only make up like 5% of Audio industry which is crazy.

I joined soundgirls and follow them on every social media and i decided t start Youtube Vlog of just what i am learning.I mean maybe inspire someone else completely floating in the wind like i was.

When i start i will update yall but anyone else finding out what they want later in life.When everyone else deep in their careers


Valentines day, What to wear!?

So if anyone is like me i want to have something cute and fun to wear in the day for my date and something sexy for my date to take off! Problem is seems like all the deals and sales are aimed toward straight sizes. Victoria secret ads spam my email all day lately but i couldnt fit my boobs in there to save my life!So i decided to share the places i shop to hopeful help other full figured women buy something to feel sexy. A couple websites that i used personally to find cute and sexy are! Of course and has sale right now, i got a 40G long bra for $24.. i mean how do you beat that and the bra perfect for valentines day with red roses., well duh and i bought myself cutest spring dress for VDay for 30 and im so into it! Feminate and flowy so give this cute innocent vibe., Such gorgeous stuff and not insane on price. I did not buy something for vday but ive bought fron them in past , Love it. Everything from here so classy. , yes they have costumes but also tons of lingerie and options some very cheap and some super nice but more expensive. I bought like a blue glitter stripper outfit from there for $20 including leg garters ..and i have stripper maryjanes to finish outfit. Domt judge me but i like to keep fire alive in my bedroom and i like dressing up to be honest. has some interesting stuff more pinup in my opinion and soooo pretty. I have not ordered this set yet but it is on my list is fun place to shop. I have gotten 2 daisy corsets from there but the price was high but oh my goodness do i look fierce in them. is where i always recommend you get you tights! Use code Raquel to get $10 off Also lonely label has comfortable stuff but seems on expensive side. Now if your like me you want to feel sexy and pretty and wanted. Hey all women do and men. Most of all its not what your wearing and how much it cost but you and how you feel. Big or small do what makes you feel great. I can say oh i want my man to be happy with how i look but honestly im worried about how i feel about it. Sometimes i wanna wear lace and i want someone to take a second look. I am going to attach pictures of the thing i bought and one of me in my blue stripper gear because why not. If i can feel beautiful so can you. Check out sites as well if you need inspiration!

New Year Doesnt always mean New Me

I hear everyone say new year new me which is great! What i cant get behind is since im fat everyone assumes im on diet and especially after new year people just assume my goal is to get thin. I hate to break it to people but its not. I dont have anything against people trying to lose weight but im not. 

It drives me crazy that i even have random people say oh what are you doing to lose weight or what gym did you join. I have a gym but not to lose 100 pounds but because i like to exercise. I have people in my own family trying to find get thin quick schemes and plans. 

I dont know why its so wrong to feel comfortable in my skin. I really just want everyone to know that being fat doesnt mean that im trying to lose weight or that i am fat just because i havent found right way to get thin. I dont have enough fingers on my hands to count the people telling me to get surgery. Weight loss surgery is a major thing and truly only for people who want it and are dedicated to that lifestyle. 

I am fat and not trying to lose or gain weight! I am also happy with ny body besides a couple things like everyone else. 

As for new year new me i was thinking new job and i want to go out more. I want to be more adventurous!? I am nearing the dirty 30 and i have never been to Vegas or a Killers concert.

What is you goal for new year?! What would make you happy or great memories for you?

Big Girls and thigh highs tights

So i dont know if any other big girls like me have wanted tights. I have seen girls on multiple occasions wearing thigh high tights just holding on to magic feels like. They look cute and i was jealous. So i began a search. I looked at torrid tights and as much as i like torrid as soon as i out them on ams stood up they rolled down. It was pretty disheartening. So i searched the internet in my quest and found Kixies. Now spending $30 on tights…Yea that took me a while to finally say fine i want to try it. 

  Guys let me tell you i did not regret it. First time i ordered they stayed up but just one day so i talk to owner and she was such a big help. I figured i needed biggest size because usually i am but no i got a C instead of D and whoa. 

I am a waitress and let me tell you they stay! Stayed up a whole shift and i wore them to mardi gras and night out . I love them so much i just ordered new ones.If you order and put code Raquel you get $10 so if you have been on fence try it. 

 Also if anyone else knows some good tights let me in the loop! I have been on a style journey and really trying to look how i want to and no that doesnt mean thinner to fit the norm clothes per say but be my big fabulous self and wear those same clothes and feel fine. I do acknowledge many might not find it cute like i do but its okay im not here to impress everyone, i am here to be happy!So i uploaded a picture, not my best but just so show other girls

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Plus size and Pregnant

Okay guys i know i have been missing in action. After i came back from my vacation i discovered i was pregnant with twins! Yes my second set, so now i am not just plus size but Plus size and Pregnant. It has been hard adjustment but the journey is almost over. Im 31 weeks now with two boys and excited to see them.

Pregnant and Plus size has so many more issues. People commenting on my weight more than ever. On how i am carrying and my weight affecting my sons. I have not gained one pound. I cut out sodas and started eating early and it really helped me maintain. Its okay to gain some weight but for me i am already pretty big. I have no issues with blood pressure, Cholestrol, diabetes or any health issues for those who always have some unkind words and my babies are measuring perfectly healthy.

Overall any woman big ,small or otherwise should be supported while pregnant and it does not give people the right to just say any unfiltered thing. I was blessed to be able to have a baby after many years struggling with infertility with my new husband so all the ups and downs are so very worth it. I hope all moms, adoptive, ivf or however you choose to start your families are also treated with nothing but respeect because we owe no one an explaination.

Mardi Gras Anyone?

Mardi gras is a time you think of young college girls making bad choices but I’ve recently started going and I have  a blast.

 I am not the queen of good choices but I have fun. I let loose for a while , walk the Strand and get beads. Only thing is I don’t like how men are so unless you have someone with you I advice you not to show you goodies. They will try to grab you and take pictures of you. If you have someone with you they can stop the touching and kinda block you so it’s safe. 

  The music, the people and just kinda of letting your worries go for a bit is nice. I would tell anyone who hasn’t gone to go. Never drink and drive and of course dress cute! Not for anyone else but yourself. When you get there and see all the beautiful girls it can mess with you confidence a bit so if your feeling great and dressed how you feel best then it won’t mess with you.

  It is empowering to find yourself sexy! We need to be our biggest fans and also try something new. Also I’ve started using Kixies thigh highs! They are just incredible,  they actually stay up and I feel so sensual in them! They have done wonders for my wardrobe. 

Ditch the Runway 

So I finally was in my first show! What a great experience .  Ditch the Runway by GirlCode Boutique owner Mone’t Davis and collaboration by Stylist Kimberly Kne’Cole and also makeup by Lamik.

    First of all it was a packed show. The show was a kind of art show for fashion. Music, food and plenty of pretty clothes . 

 I was so nervous before hand . I walked in and there where models all over room with suit cases and makeup. I just had my star wars backpack and a pair of shoes. Everyone was half dressed getting fitted. Now being bigger im actually very weird about my body but with so many women all sizes everything was just okay. So many beautiful ladies with their own spark and style. I had fun working with them all!

 I had a great experience . If i hadn’t been in the show i would have definitely bought a ticket. I had on the cutest outfit. I am a bit fashion ignorant so im pure jeans and tees most days but this opened my eyes to feeling beautiful and embracing myself and body more. 

I seriously took a look at how I judge my body and feel so much better. Such a confidence boost for someone to see other women their size and for models who wouldn’t fit in the norm. There are people like those who run GirlCode Boutique who make clothes for all women and I truly love it! I am actually now proud owner to the skirt I wore and a glitter body suit now that I am planning to sport for new years. Guys take a chance be different .  I saw casting call and everything went from there. You are beautiful and you don’t have to fit in a cookie cutter body.I am truly greatful for such a great opportunity .  I urge guys to looks into GirlCode Boutique for great body positive clothing and Kimberly Kne’Cole for styling.

First photo shoot a success 

I arrived at TSU at 730am Saturday morning. TSU is a college here in houston and it was a foggy day but felt so nice outside.  

We all wore black and chatted poses and life which was great. The stylist Kimberly is a very very good one with tons of great insight. Now the show is for Ditch the Runway with miss Mone’t .  

I actually missed the first shoot but because she so great she did a reshoot . It is intimidating to watch girls who have modeled slay so hard but I tried my best and he got some good pictures which I’ll share later when I get them. This is my first shoot and so proud of it!

But I have some behind d the scenes pictures. No im not perfect or the cutest but it’s truly such a great experience! If you have never done one you should even just for you. Kim said something that stuck with me we need to help eachother and keep helping eachother up. Being plus size and women of color we need to be there and supportive. Don’t be mad at someone’s success but happy . I hope to keep working with these ladies and positivity. Mone’t has given me an opportunity and I’m green as can be but she see me try and does nothing but lift my spirit. This show is going to be so great guys. I will take tons of pictures as well as get a video for you guys to see on my YouTube so stay tuned.

I wore torrid top, Torrid Fold over skirt, Torrid leather vest and combat boots I bought second hand. Any opinions please let me know i love hearing from everyone. 

If your in houston area Ditch the runway show with be Dec 3 . Tickets can be bought at eventbrite and have some promo host gigs coming to which I can’t wait to share with everyone!

Gangsta clown makeup 

I saw a girl youtube tutorial and was sold. Now she was way cuter and thinner but she showed so easy how to do it. 

I decided Saturday was a good day to do all my magic. It was actually kinda hard because of the lines and using black always a mess. I used my regular makeup and took a men’s shirt for the look .

Has anyone seen the video im talking about with a girl with blue hair? Anyone else try it and give me some pointers? 

Well this is my best attempt and also first. I hope you guys enjoy it. Feel free to give me feedback and like my page on facebook. Link in comments 

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